Jessica-is-here

I hate feeling left out. And I hate losing friends.

Haha, isn't funny how we see such a small part of people's lives on here? We see their pictures and think of them just as that. But, really we're all going about our day, doing normal everyday things that no one here sees. Nobody on here would no that I'm sitting here at the computer talking with my little brother, Kyle (who is awesome, by the way, even though he's only 14 ), drinking a Dr. Pepper, with my feet up on the computer desk. None of ya'll would know that if I hadn't said it. And you wouldn't know that I'm laughing, because my brother does hilarious voices and randomly bursts into song. You wouldn't know that today is a great day.
   And, yes, this is a very obvious observation, but sometimes you just realize something that makes you think, 'Wow' or makes you laugh, and today I realized that the only way people on deviantArt have to view me is by my photographs and maybe my journals, or the way I talk. I just thought that was funny.

Ok, journal. I've never been good with updating a blog, but I like reading when people do, so I guess, I'll give it a go.

So...my SAT scores will be posted tomorrow. I'm just a little nervous...or really nervous. I think I did ok on the reading and writing sections, but I didnt even do a lot of the math question. I hate math. And then I found out that all the colleges I'm considering do not count the writing section. So, I just hope my reading score makes up for my math score, cause I really need at least a little scholarship from it. And i am definetly not telling my family that the essay is posted online, becasue though I think I wrote a decent essay, for a rough draft, I don't want anyone reading it. Ok, I guess I'm going on and on about this. So that's enough. Posted tomorrow, I'm nervous, whatever happens happens.

So, I dont know if anyone reads the literature, and I really like this...thing I wrote the other day, so I'm posting it here. it describes pretty much exactly how I feel most days.

Dear God,
My friend is going through a lot
She can't go on this way
But I don't know how to help her
I don't know what to say

So I pray that you will keep her
Keep her close to you
She needs your light to guide her
And your strength to get her through

She tries so hard to find you
But sometimes you're hard to see
I guess you know by now
That friend I have, it's me.


I just feel like I need to do something, but I don't know what. And love is really hard to see lately. Wow, ok. That's all. Bye bye.


EDIT: I dont feel like posting a new journal just to say my scores, so I'll say this. Average/good reading score, average/bad math score, and a great writing score. So, not too bad.

I love summer!
Just a few more weeks of school until the summer arrives. I cannot wait! And after summer I'll be an official senior in high school. Life goes by fast. I remember the beginning of my junior year, thinking "Wow, I'm an upperclassman." Wasnt that yesterday? And now here I am, one year later, about to start my last year. I love life!